I was with him last night,
And as always the sweet nothings sounded just right.
It was wrong by all standards,
Because he had someone, and so did i
Everytime i got out of his bed i promised myself it was not going to repeat itself.
But i’ve come to like it when he touches me, i like how it makes me feel.
So someway, somehow, i find myself back in his arms.

He is just so gentle with me,
And quickly notices my mood swings
His kisses and warm touches in the right places always fix it.
We could spend the whole day in bed just staring into each others eyes and giggling.
There’s nothing like a dull moment whenever i’m around him.
He’s never too busy to listen to my fears
All i have to do is pour out my heart to him.
Don’t get me wrong, i love my partner and i’m sure he does his.

Cheating is not the best way out, i know
But at this moment it looks like what’s perfect to do. Several times i’ve tried to confess to him but he’s just too busy to sit and even have a simple how was your day kind of convo. I’m tired of bottling everything up but what can i do? I don’t want to be the nag he always thinks i am. But atleast it will be better to know if he still holds value of what we share.

Five years spent together with him is something i’d love to do over and over again.
But lately things have changed. We seem like two worlds apart, oil and water not able to mix completely no matter how much or fast you try to stir. And i’m done fussing and argueing. I don’t have the strength for it. I’m tired, i don’t want to be the only one fighting for us anymore.

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